Wednesday, January 28, 2009
BUT trying to put on pants one size down? Forget about it! I just have two words to describe it: muffin top. YUCK! It's not major muffin top but it's enough that I'd rather be baggy at this point. Besides, I'm home all day anyway, so who cares?!
TANGENT: I now wear size LARGE pajama bottoms, whereas when I was a skinny thing I wore mediums (in junior). I was wearing XL. The pajama bottoms Daniel got me for Christmas were a little snug at Christmas and now they fit PERFECT.
Maybe it is just the pairs of jeans that I have. Part of me doesn't want to go spend $20 or more to get some jeans anyway since my goal isn't to wear size 12 jeans. I have a TON of size 10 jeans from after Butterfly was born. But that is it. I have size 16's and size 10's. But alas, it looks like I may need to go buy some "transition" jeans.
The upside to all of this, other than losing weight (DUH), is that I get to thrift a ton of pants that no longer fit! Wahhhhooooo! Last night I started putting together tops and pants that are getting baggy for the thrift store and I felt so liberated!
I don't think my major problem is my waist. I think my major problems are my ghetto rear-end and my chest (I'm short, I need my girls to be smaller!). My ideal waist size should be around 31-32 inches so not much longer to reach that goal.
To figure out your ideal waist size- add up your height in inches. I'm 5'3" so my height in inches is 63. Divide that in half and that should be your target waist size.
So I'm just talking in crazy circles and I'm sure half of this doesn't even make sense. The main point is that pants don't fit me and I need workouts for my bum and chest (other than walking- I don't have a treadmill and it is way too cold for me to walk with the babies).
Can anyone help me? Any workouts to tone down chest and bum?
Here's my lunch from today (just for you, Andrea! You said my posts make you hungry, LOL!):
Does anyone else think cottage cheese is disgusting? I eat it anyway, since it is good for me. But it always taste funky to me, even with pepper!
I've got my protein, little bit of fruit (raisins), vegetable (celery) and dairy. Yum, yum! It was actually very filling.
P.S. Did anyone watch LOST tonight? *GASP*SPUTTER*GASP* Too many twists and turns, answers and questions.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Right now I'm asking myself a few questions-
1). Why on earth am I not upstairs, cuddled under my warm comforter in 68 degrees of delicious warmth?
2). Why does losing weight hurt and feel so good at the same time?
3). Why does Daniel think shooting people on video games is entertainment and relaxing? I'm stressed out just listening to the gunfire!
4). What on earth am I making for dinner tomorrow?
5). Why am I not in bed yet?
6). Is my nose frozen? Have I turned into a Momsicle?!
I originally got on here over an hour ago to do a workout. Oops. I totally forgot in the midst of reading the bagillion comments I've gotten for the giveaway and chatting it up on a forum about a woman who just gave birth to EIGHT babies (click here)!
Now don't fret! I did do a million crunches........ more than usual anyway.
On other good news, my wedding ring is sliding all over my finger. Being cold is part of it but even when I'm really hot and swollen my wedding ring is loose. This is a major deal to me! I got it re-sized about a year ago because it was a size 6 and I had to "upgrade" to a 7.5. Looks like I'm getting it re-sized again soon! I'm going to wait until I lose more weight first, though.
Waist- 34.5" (.5" loss)
Hip- 40.5" (.5" loss)
Rt. Thigh- 20.5" (1.5" loss)
Lft. Thigh- 20.5" (2" loss)
Rt. Calf- 14.75" (1" loss)
Lft. Calf- 15" (.75" loss)
Rt. Bicep- 11.75" (.75" loss)
Lft. Bicep- 12" (no change)
Neck- 13.75" (.25" loss)
Butt- 42.75" (.25" loss)
Chest- 39" (3" loss)
Subtotal: 10 1/2 inches!
TOTAL LOST INCHES: 13"
Wow, so my biggest loss was in my breasts. In three weeks I've lost 10 1/2 inches. My jeans today were literally falling off of me. I could pull them down without unbuttoning them.
I still have a long way to go but this really motivates me!
Last weigh-in was 184.5 lbs. I'm hoping that by Saturday I'm 179! I want to be in the 170's!!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Every single time I go out with the kids, without any other adult, I come home ready to pull my hair out. It's a constant barrage of "Don't touch that," "Stop whining," and "If you don't knock it off I'm taking you home!" I probably say the word "Don't" a gazillion times. I get stares, lots and lots of stares.
So today I used my best playing card. The promise of the golden arches and a playground of tubes and slides. Oh yes, we went to Mc.Donalds. A few blocks away from the place of happy meals and french fries I kept arguing with myself in my head about it and trying to decide if I was going to skip lunch or indulge in some warm, salty fries.
My craving won out! I ordered everything SMALL and got lemonade instead of pop (or as many of you like to say "soda"). Well I just entered the nutritional information into my tracker and guess what! My entire Mc.Donald's meal, including lemonade, was only 553 calories. The fat for it all was 25 (but I have an allotment of 32-56 a day).
I haven't gone over my calories OR my fat intake for the day and I still got to indulge a little. It's been months since I've been there and I was nervous for my bowels but so far, so good! The kiddos got to run around and play at the indoor playground, too.
Funny story- There was this group of women there with their kids. All of them had newborns or were pregnant and they had older children (no older than 7 or 8). They were talking about homeschooling and conversion minivans. I felt like I was eavesdropping on a very posh Mommy Circle. And these women seemed to do it all! Homeschool, field trips, play dates, having newborns and no sleep and no sex... wow, I think I found Super Mom's playgroup. I could tell who the "head honcho" was of the group, too.
Very, very interesting to say the least! But they were also very gossipy about some mothers that weren't there for the date so definitely not feeling envious. Don't they realize that when they're the ones missing a playdate (unless they ARE Super Mom, then that would never happen) that their sex lives and parenting skills are being rated by their "friends" as well? If you talk with a talker, chances are that talker talks with others about you too!
Monday, January 19, 2009
I haven't worked out yet today. After the weekend it is hard to get back in the saddle! On Saturday I rode the stationary bike because I knew we were going out to dinner. Ha ha! Wanted to burn some calories, ya know?
We ended up going to M.imi's C.afe and I have to admit I might not go there again except for their F.rench O.nion S.oup. It just wasn't very good and I don't know if it is because it has been awhile since we ate out or if their food truly is not that great. I just know that I've tried many dishes there and I haven't liked any of it. Just the soup!
Anyway, I only ate half of my burger. When we left I felt like a bloated blimp. UGH! I don't think I WANT to eat out again anytime soon. I felt like everything- my butt, thighs, stomach- swelled up. I felt greasy and gross, too. And it made me feel incredibly tired, like the burger sucked up my energy. I just know I went home and felt uncomfortable, gross, and swollen.
I looked up the nutrition information on the burger since I am charting my food right now and there were 1478 calories in the burger alone (not counting fries). There were 105 grams of FAT!
According to my sparkpeople nutrition chart, based on my weight, height, and amount of weight to lose--- I'm supposed to get 1,200-1,550 calories A DAY and less than 52 grams of fat. WOW! It's a huge eye-opener when you chart your food. I've been doing good with getting about 1,200-1,300 calories a day so far.
We had a wonderful date. I have a hard time on dates because I feel there's all this pressure to make conversation (which I'm not good at). And because Daniel is my husband he already knows what I'm up to and vice versa. We try to stay off the subject of religion, politics, money, and our kids (aka all the stress-inducing topics) when on a date.
So I just relaxed and let things flow. We ended up just being big flirts and joking around. I kept teasing him about Mardi Gras (M.imi's C.afe is decorated with Mardi Gras flair) because he's going on the annual missions trip this year and I want to go SO BADLY! But alas, we have children and Mardi Gras isn't necessarily family-friendly.
We also saw the movie "M.all C.op" and it was a riot! We laughed so incredibly hard during that movie. K.evin J.ames reminds me of Daniel so much it's almost scary. Or is it that Daniel reminds me of K.evin J.ames?
Thank you guys for your sweet comments about the previous post, with the baby items. The reason I felt silly was because I didn't want people to think I am so obsessive. The stuff is still sitting on my dresser, too. So much for packing it away! I'm slowly working my way upstairs, cleaning-wise.
Anyway, that is what is up with me! I'm 4-lbs lighter (well, maybe not after my disgusting burger) and feeling good today! I'm going to work on getting my workout in. I used to worry about having a set time to get it done in, but the reality is that life gets in the way sometimes and it doesn't matter WHEN... what matters is that it DOES happen.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Now I originally had this set in mind for someone else. But a lot of people are keeping their baby names secret so I had no clue who to get the set for because you need a baby name for it. I had already sent off the items they had traded for so she was waiting on my decision for the set. So I decided to just give it to myself since I know what I want. And now I feel just plain silly after opening the box (it arrived tonight).
Isn't it darling? Three very nice burp cloths, three very nice bibs, and a beautiful blue blanket all monogrammed with the name Caiden. It all came in a pretty little basket that they're all placed in.
I'm not obsessive. I just had a deadline and needed to give her a name so we could complete our trade. Nonetheless, after opening the box, I feel like that happy little monogrammed baby face is mocking me. So this beautiful little set will be carefully boxed back up and wait in a closet for the day it can burp, swaddle, and feed a little boy.
I caught Daniel carefully touching the stitches of the name before squaring his shoulders and walking out of our room. I don't know if he just wanted to touch it or if he felt the same as me. We're stowing away things for a baby we don't even have.
But, if we ever do have a boy he'll know how very much loved he was before he was even conceived. That we loved him while he was still just a dream in our hearts. Or as the saying goes, "... a twinkle in his daddy's eye!"
If you are pregnant and interested in getting one of these gorgeous sets or you need a baby shower gift idea you can visit the artist's shop HERE. I noticed she didn't have this exact gift set up so you can contact her about it and I know she'll love to get a set made for you!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
But I'm doing good. I'm not in pain or anything. I'm trying to allow myself to feel emotions in the moment, instead of what I think I should be feeling. Grieving can take a long time.
And of course I'm thinking about how I got pregnant with Bumble Bee immediately after my first cycle with my previous miscarriage. How Bumble Bee was born within days of the date I found out I was pregnant with the little one I miscarried. Wow, that is kind of a confusing statement but you get it, I hope.
Anyway, still staying focused on working out and changing my life. I am a person of little self control in certain areas, which is probably my weakest attribute. I have to stay motivated. I have to change. I'm known to change my mind like the wind changes direction. While I do want another baby, I also want to change who I am.
And like I said before, if it happens then it'll happen and we'll be blessed and ecstatic! But for now I'm waiting for the numbers on the scale to go down before actively getting on the TTC Bandwagon again. If I can reach HALF my goal before the springtime then I'll totally jump back on.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
This past weekend I didn't really workout. We had so much going on that I never had enough time to workout and shower. So I made up a TO DO list last night, ready to tackle the house. Except when I woke up this morning I was feeling really ill, flu-like. I'm fine now and got a few things crossed off the TO DO list.
My TO DO? I love looking at people's lists so here's mine:
- Go through medical bills, make payments, balance book
- Make grocery list (add 9V and AA batteries)
Dishes Finish uploading items to new Etsy shop and shipped/create new jewelry Get orders made
- Sort kid toys
and cat toys Get thrift bag(s) together
- Sort through movies
- Clean out junk drawers
- Measure fabric for Lindee
- Go through old magazines
- Straighten up 3rd Story
- Vacuum and mop
Make spaghetti for dinner
I guess I should add "Go to store and buy another test" to the list. Not obsessing but definitely wanting to make sure because I'd need to take the progesterone as a precaution. Will keep y'all posted if and when I decide to test.
On a positive note, look at the new feature in the left-hand sidebar. I started a list of measurements. In almost a month I've lost ONE INCH off my waist! And 1 1/2 INCHES off my butt! That doesn't seem like much but remember, this was over the holidays and I just started, not to mention the scale is not budging. I'm *toning* which is awesome in my book! TWO-AND-A-HALF inches gone!
I also added more detailed measurements so I could know a total inches lost. If anyone else has a list like this, I'd love to see it!