Or did... I guess posting this a few days ago would be more consistent. Anywho, ever since Bumble Bee was born I haven't had any EWCM (egg white cervical mucous--- oh yeah, this is a fun post! With lots of info I'm sure my older sister would rather not hear... LOL!).
But a few days ago, on the cycle I stopped trying and began focusing on exercise, on the cycle that I did NOT take Clomid, on the cycle that I finally felt like I didn't want another baby--- I had EWCM on my own. And a LOT of it. I was actually jumping up and down in the bathroom, pants around the ankles... go ahead and picture it and laugh at my expense! I'm a person who loves to laugh at themself!!!
Daniel and I were doing the normal, healthy thing and just BDing when we want. So needless to say we did around that special time of the month (nope, not AF... the other special time! O time!).
Our anniversary is October 30th. AF is due the 28th. Which means I can test before our anniversary and be able to tell him... That is, if God has finally decided to let this happen! Since I probably will forget to post, or you may not come in here everyday for an update before our anniversary, let's brainstorm some cool ways to break the news to Daniel! I've always wanted to tell him in a special way. Not just running out of the bathroom and flashing the test in his face!
Eek, trying to not get excited here. But I've always wanted to get pregnant around a special holiday to make it even more special to share. The one time I did get to share great news in a great way, I miscarried. Butterfly wore a "I'm a Big Sister- 2006" shirt that I hand painted to my inlaws' house. I think I actually threw that shirt away after the miscarriage.
My other two pregnancies- well with Butterfly we were young and unwed so telling family wasn't exactly easy to do. Not fun in any way. With Bumble Bee I was so terrified of miscarring again that I took Anne and Lindee (MIL) aside and told them to pray. Nothing really special by telling them with fear filling my eyes with tears.
So hoping that when we do get pregnant, whether it is now or in a few months, that it's around our anniversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years--- whatever!
But I am also hoping that my other SIL gets pregnant before me or with me. She's older [than me], has been battling some fertility and psychological issues and I don't want her to get another blow. Anne and I were pregnant together for all three of my pregnancies (two of Anne's, remember I lost one! My baby was due a week before Buddy was due but went to Heaven). And now her SIL is pregnant again and I don't want to be that person she resents if it happens again for me before her. It's a mess, I know. But I know what it feels like to get "the blow" when someone close becomes pregnant when you're trying so hard.
I digress... or I guess I wasn't digressing. I just want this SIL to get pregnant and I don't mind if she does at all before me. It's definitely NOT a contest! I will probably cry tears of JOY for them. I went as far (because of her conditions) as offering to be her surrogate. I did think long and hard about it. I know there would've been psychological testing involved, etc. I spoke to many people about it and they were supportive so I approached my SIL about it. But she wanted to try on her own first, obviously.
So please keep them in your prayers if you remember. This is Daniel's brother and his wife.