My legs are shaky, I can barely walk... they feel like Jell-O... Those bootcamp videos are butt-kicking! PHEW! I bought Abs Bootcamp and Ultimate Bootcamp. I could NOT finish either of them. I did the Abs one the other day and my abs HURT (even to breathe) for two full days after.
I did Ultimate today and I felt like I was going to collapse in the shower afterwards. I have to tell you, though, that working out feels SO good. I've always loved working out. In fact, I used to walk everywhere and I had the cutest butt ever. Seriously! I once caught Daniel looking as we were walking up the stairs at church. I had these cool dragons appliqued onto the back pockets and he swears up and down, to this day, that he was looking at the dragons! I ain't never seen NO man look at dragons THAT way!
Anyway I feel good and energetic. I hope this motivation lasts so you guys don't stop pumping me up! I have to admit I'm incredibly driven right now to lose weight. I've been fine with not being pregnant but this last cycle was the last straw and now I can barely make myself go into the pregnancy forums that I lead.
But there are many reasons I'm driven right now.
1). I HAVE to lose weight! I don't want to end up like some people I've known, including my mom. Diabetes runs in the family and while my insulin/glucose are normal right now I'm worried that with PCOS diagnosis my chances are higher.
2). Seeing old pictures of myself, getting out my old jeans (I still have my dragon jeans!). I used to be a size 6! Now I can't even fit my thigh into the opening of my dragon jeans (totally kidding... I can kind of get it in there! Okay, kidding again...).
3). I want a baby. Butterfly asks me every single night now. I don't talk about babies, except to mention Aunt Anne's new baby. Butterfly tells me, "Aunt Anne has a baby in her tummy like you?" Then I have to explain that I don't have one but she is still very confused. And tonight she told me to send Bumble Bee away and have a new baby. GREEEEEAT! I had to explain how we don't get rid of one another.
Butterfly gets very hurt by this. After having a chat with her tonight about why Mommy is exercising and waiting to have a baby, she whispered, "I keep askin' Jebus for a baby, Momma." It near breaks my heart!