... definitely not pregnant. Yeah, I'll just cut to the chase. AF arrived right on time, again. That in itself is a good thing, but not being pregnant really stinks. So I'm putting TTC on the back burner and I'm focusing on losing weight. I want to lose at least 25lbs to start. I'm guessing that could take 2-3 months!
MY GOAL is to wake up at 6:30 am and workout. That's really the only time I'd ever get to without kids. I'm going to buy a Billy Blanks workout (because his workouts are amazing, he's a Christian, and he's just great!) for the days I can't get outside. I ABHOR being cold and with winter coming up it'll be good to have a workout DVD.
I'm so angry about having to struggle this long to get pregnant that I'm driven to workout by that anger. I keep kicking myself saying, "I should've just done this a year ago!" Don't get me wrong! I was working out but not to the extent I should have. I've been eating healthy already, so not much will change to that except LESS carbs.
I used to be a dancer on the worship team. I used to be a tiny size 6 and now I'm a roly-poly 16. I just am so tired of being like this and I want to look good and be an example of health to my girls. Plus, I don't think it'll happen if I don't!
This blog will probably become a very boring record of my workout and eating habits. We'll still be BDing and "letting things happen, if they happen" but I'm not taking Clomid this cycle or even the next (maybe--- I change my mind quite a bit).